Our path can stream so many different alternatives and at any point at zero. That means in any instance any number of things can come about. Five months ago I sat down and began the process to work out the details of my life. Since then it’s been one emotive spinning turbulent bubbling motion that forced all possibilities out into the open. Well, most possibilities out. Some are too deep, or too expressive, or too unthought of to be known or thought possible and they are in a group of outliers. What’s more is that all the possible ‘nexts’ are in that same group. So to be ‘of course’ is to be a person that makes the greatest effort to get to the goal set while allowing the journey there to remain free to roam.
Sleeping on couches and floors – two hardwood floors this tour already – has turned the beacon of my desired outcome in no other way but where it was first set. Using strange showers, dissolving our great need for privacy, expanding our comforts to include discomfort – these are the things we are learning how to master. We belong here because it is part of the journey to there. For this knowledge along I am grateful. For knowing that this is the course gives us power over the carrying on. We always get to choose the carrying on anyhow, but to carry the knowledge that we are on the course, although it might be hard and diminishing, lets us have some sense of certainty. Even if that might change it gives the allusion of a mooring – an anchor point.
I do hope you are both free in your decision to remove yourself from all courses and place yourself in all courses – that your own mooring, your own anchoring, will keep you tethered to the flow. Brava.