The Divorce Album – Monsters in us All

Two-tone Suit

Standing here in a two-tone suit

Forgetting all the words I’ve been practicing for you

The aching in my heart is felt in the passers-by

I weep – we cry

To guarded are the hearts that I’ve let down

Like a funeral for lovers, haters, found, and still unfound

We weep – we cry

Who are we?

To be shackling our lovers so that they cannot leave?

Who are we?

We shackle up our hopes and we shackle up our dreams.

It’s better to be unhappy than to leave

Why the hell is this something that we teach?

It’s better to be unhappy than to change

Why the hell must we all live life this way?

Now the light has changed and I start to walk

My heart doesn’t know the way

And I’m sure my feet are lost

The imaginary details in the fabric is wearing thin

You can see my heart – through my skin

See me clearly now out and in…chorus

Bridge

I wanted to build a lighthouse

Full of open hearts where the heavy just pours out

I wanted to build a lighthouse with you

I wanted to build a lighthouse with you

Shine

If you don’t love me anymore

Then I’m going to lay down my swords

And I’ll give up the words I use to say

Everything is going to be ok

Ok

Everything is going to be ok

It’s better not to light my mind

Your false hopes are caustic

Your fucking words are toxic rhymes

I don’t want to be ok if I’m not ok

Take out the human – take out the self

Take out our emotions – and we’ll put them on the shelf

We were one machine – one man shine – One woman shining

Now just a machine – one must shine – One is shining

So if you don’t want me anymore

I’ll take out all the reasons for what we’re still fighting for

And I’ll give up the words I use to say

Everything is going to be ok

Ok

Everything is going to be ok

I can see you fighting in your head

Contradicting all things that you’ve said

How you’d never let go

But now you just don’t know

But now you just don’t know…1stverse and Chorus

Bridge

My enemy – my better me

You’d better be my enemy

You’ve got to be strong if you’re going to stand against me

My enemy – my better me

You’d better not be my enemy

You’ve got to be stronger if you’re going to stand with me

And if you don’t love me anymore…1stverse and chorus

So I’ll give up the words I use to

So I’ll give up the words I use to

So I’ll give up the words I use to say

Everything is going to be ok

Ok – Ok

Everything is going to be ok

Get the Fuck Out

Bm – D – A – G – whole song

Saddest goddamn thing that you ever heard

A fucking love story that just didn’t work out

But it didn’t work out cause it didn’t work out

Saddest goddamn thing that no one deserves

uh oh – we learn – when the bad shit comes we take our turn

uh oh oh – we grow – we grow – lie

Get the fuck out – get the fuck out of here

Get the fuck out – get the fuck out of here

You’re a bad man

When you had the chance to stand against

The bad the worst you put your sleeve upon the fence

and waited for it all to fall down – da-down – down – down

Yeah bad woman

In your search for happiness you put forgiveness in your fist

You punched a bad ticket – A family of innocents

Now angry hearts and bitterness

Corrupted minds and tug-of-war

That is what we’re heading for – so…chorus

What you gonna do

Now that you broke this into too many pieces

To ever be complete x2

You let her put fear in your heart

You let her tear these lives apart

You do your best to protect her see

You can’t tell that her light is dark…chorus

Four legs walking two arms swinging

Two hands holding good company

Not caught in the loss for what they don’t have

Held by the grace of what they gave back…oh oh

They learn – when the bad shit comes they take their turn

Uh oh oh – they grow – they grow

(Preach it to the choir)

GTFO – Bridge – Chorus

I Forgive You

You use to stand for something

You use to stand for something

And yes I thought I knew

Yes, I trusted you

But I was wrong

I was wrong

Now there’s a cold lump in your chest

Where your heart use to rest

And I lie close next to there

I’d ever slow my air just here it beat

I thought it beat for me

But I was wrong

Yeah – you use to speak of other halves

Of a whole that would always last

You told me I should find you if you’re lost

And what I should do

Is fight like hell to bring back

And you would do the same for me

So, other half, where have you been?

You tell me that I failed you when I couldn’t stay in

But you weren’t really there

Were ya?

Fix yourself. Heal yourself – you are alone.

It’s not my dream – so you are alone

You tortured me with the things you’d do I was alone

You wouldn’t stand with me and you let it known

And I stood alone

So – goodbye. Farewell.

Goodbye to you.

I hope someday you remember why

We stand beside each other like we do.

Let You Go.

Ashes to ashes we return – we have burned – we have burned.

Dearest love. What else can I say?

Everything has blown up in my face

The sadness that you see is from the things I couldn’t be

I watched you hurt – I let you hurt.

Dearest love. You let go of my hand.

You reached back but I don’t know if I can

And I know – Oh I fucked up my turn – fucked up my turn

I made you hurt and I let you burn.

You let me burn. You let me hurt.

I watched you hurt. I let you burn.

We caused the hurt. We let it burn.

We took our turn. We need to stop the hurt.

We need to stop the hurt.

Dearest love. Oh, I’ve paid the price.

My heart is gone and my soul just isn’t right

My other half that taught me how to love

Teaches not to trust

I watched it burn – I even helped it burn.

Dearest love. What else can I mean?

When I show I will trade everything

You’re fairytale beliefs are searching

For a happy ending

I won’t watch you hurt – I won’t let you hurt. Chorus

Bridge

Dearest Love. I see now that you’ve aged.

I see, too, just how much you’ve aged

We were moving so fast that it all just slipped away

We were moving so fast that it all just passed away

I let you go – I watched you grow

I stopped the hurt – I let you burn

Jars

This is my redemption

This is my let go of it all

I have given everything

Just to be released – Just to be released

I have kept this all in jars

My walls are lined with a life I’ve trapped in glass

I’d break it all to hell but I’d lose everything I have

If some of these things got out that would be bad

I’d break it all to hell but I’d lose everything I have

I keep my soul in a jar on the shelf

Guarded by my delirium

My sanity often pleads with me – let go

You’re broke

And you will break more if you stay like this…chorus

I keep my love in a jar on the shelf

Next to an angry ghost

That’s the thing that needs kept trapped the most – the most

I keep my light in a jar on the shelf

Guarded by my insecurities

Heavy darkness fills the space

I can see my light is safe.

Bridge

I tried to escape – now I laugh at the thought of it

There is no getting away – there is no getting out of this

There is no getting away – there is no getting out of this

Me Too Like You

I stood up and I shook you off

I paid your ransoms and still I lost

I’m so different now than I was before

I was a dreamer fighting in a dreamers war

I think back on all I’ve said

Just a fucked up man with a fucked up head

What you don’t know is I’m fucking with yours

Just a fucked up soul in this fucked up war

And I know what I’m doing isn’t right

I’ve been taught all the things that I should hide

But goddamn right – I’m calling you out

All you ugly motherfuckers with your corrupt souls and mouths

Me too. Like you. Me too.

So you can talk God – you can talk faith

I see hope backed by hate

You vultures pick at my moral flesh

All righteous motherfuckers in your own heads

Me too. Like you. Me too…chorus

Bridge

I bet you don’t even know the truth

Your actions don’t support the words you use

These vultures will keep picking at my soul

You don’t know what you don’t know

You don’t know what you don’t know

Hell, you know that I’m gonna die

Hell I know that I’m gonna die

I’m a prisoner of the evermore

Just a fucked up soul now in this fucked up war

You don’t know what I’ve done

But it’s your soul I’ve been fight for

I’m a prisoner now of the evermore

I’m a fucked up soul in a fucked up war…chorus

Evermore

You didn’t know but years ago you saved my life

I didn’t tell me secrets and it killed me to keep them all inside

But you gave me light – it made me strong

You gave me reasons to hold on

And you gave me fight – and family

You taught me love and how to breathe

But you went away to a place I cannot go

Your light it barely shines and I give you some of mine

You take it all

Anger in one fist – forgiveness in the other

I open up both hands

Fare thee well my lover – Goodbye

So I guess I’ll take the blame

I guess I’ll take the blame for now

There’s a hardline coming from the straight forward back machine

There’s a broke man talking about losing everything

There’s an ice-cold return about everything that’s wrong

But he stands there and spares her and loves her through it all

And evermore – evermore – evermore

Evermore – evermore

He is me and I love you evermore

The hardline that’s coming is the realization for what you’ve done

To everyone you love

You’ve turned us all into to fools

With these lies that you’ve told caustically unfolding

Your corrupted soul desparately holding

Onto all these lies you treat as truth

But I won’t stand in the way of you

Like I did – like I would do

All these consequences they are yours

But I’ll take the blame – yes I’ll take the blame for now

Until you’re strong enough to make it out

Stigmas and Stones

Oh I row oh I row

My boat upon the sea

Don’t bury me don’t bury me

In the sea – in the sea

It took me so long to get over

All the stigmas that controlled my here

Oh they covered me like cloth

And turned me to stone

Move me if you can – Move me if you can

Oh please move me if you can at all

I’m a collage of all intent

Some good – Some bad

When the bad consumes my mind

The good fights to bring me back

But a stone like me can’t be moved easily

Oh please move me if you can

Move me if you can – oh please move me if you can

At all

And if you think you can help me

We both shall fail

Oh, and you loved me

You suffered as well

All that I am and all that I might be

Isn’t something we fix, Love,

But please try fixing me

I said I would trade it all

Well that’s not what I meant

You can take it all for free

I’ve forgiven all your debts

I know maybe you will never forgive mine

You can keep my name in red

And I’ll keep towing lines…chorus

Bridge

Here I stand a stone

An old man growing old

Nothing is the only thing I own

Oh hell I’ve paid

For the things I’ve done

It bought forgiveness from no one…chorus

After All

All my superstitious trees have been cut down

And my walls lie in ruin on the ground on the ground

Yeah – stones and wood

They are things that now lie here

Taking space taking space

You can tell there was a battle

Yes I’m scared now but not like I was

Cause we all have these ways that we heal

All these ways that we will

And we can – better after

If.

We learn what we can take

We learn what we can leave

But we can be better after all

Woman, how you been?

I’ve been thinking of better times when

We thought this could never get better

Thought that we would always be sheltered

From the weather

And I look back through the wreckage

A scattered trail of you and me

The madness of such degree

Oh Woman, what did we do to each other?

And I will take it all

Yes, I will own this

Yeah, because I know this…chorus

Bridge

Heavy on my shoulders the battle seemed colder than it was

But just because the mistrust was backed up with fake love

And the apologies you gave me were hollow and followed by

the same thing

It was time for forgiveness for you from me

It was time forgiveness

And I stand to forgive you by remembering

By remembering

There were days when I would chase you

All around our house here because

I loved to see you smile

So, while you are remembering

Add this to your memory

The law of diminishing returns commands

The way we’ve burned each other thoroughly

And out there on your journey

Forgiveness is a must

And in yourself find trust

Or the madness will corrupt

The best you’ve ever loved

And one thing absolute

Belonging to universal truth

This I remind you of

This I will always remind you of…chorus